I dream dreams
Of pale blue lilacs
No
Halt!
That's wrong- I don't.
What is a lilac?
If I admit it- I'm an imposter
A fraud in a shell of an oyster
I'm no pearl, really
I just wanted to play in the Lady's feathers
And now I've ruined it,
I'm sorry.
I don't really know what I am
I just wanted to be-
Beautiful-
To stand in the lights and let the
smoke cover my flaws
To carve out a name among the
Trophies and Legends so I
don't ever have to wonder
If I really matter-
I'm sorry I broke your vase,
I honestly thought I had the right;
Not to break it, but to go inside
I thought if I tried on the diamonds
Maybe the glamour would
Materialize
I would faint, now, if I could.
But I can't, so I'll go
Roll my hair and wonder
Why I'm not quite there yet,
Always moving on.
I wonder why there's an inside
if nobody ever gets there-
We just all stand on the lawn
With our flip flops and beach chairs
And wonder why everyone else
Is looking at us funny?